Thanks Rascal Flatts.....

"I'm Moving On"

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

Accept What You Can't Change

I am really coming to terms with the importance of accepting people's choices for their choices. No matter how mad, how crazy, how resentful I may fill, it doesn't change their choices. In fact it may push them towards those options I don't agree with. I am taking a new approach to really accept what I can't change. With all of the stresses of life and all that we really don't have control over, no matter how important it is to us, we are not changing someone's mind by not accepting their choices. Ironically, it brings more harm to our soul then theirs. I am really reaping the benefits of this new attitude and it has been a release of responsibility. There is something to the saying "live and let live." Now let me clarify....I am not becoming this passive person, do what you want to do and don't worry about the consequences person. On the contrary, I feel very strongly that we each have a huge responsibility to be the best person in society and contribute to building a healthy society. But, the very thing killing us physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually is self inflicted.....stress, resentment, hate, and selfishness. The cure? Understanding. Isn't that what we all want, to be understood and then loved anyway? I have reached a place that I have never been before. As I have become more accepting and resigned to love instead of resent, I am amazed at how much it makes me love people even more. This may not be a new concept but it has become paramount in my life.

Breast Cancer Awareness 2010

Feeling very inspired this week for the topic of the month Breast Cancer. Trying to wear my pink religiously and thinking of the fallen. I have a goal of eventually walking the walk of 60 miles for the cause, but life is not permitting that right now. I have been obsessed with the John Mayer song "Heartbreak Warfare". I originally wanted to do something political (which I normally am not) but found that it was really making more mad then feeling better. Then I found a couple of pictures on breast cancer and I was compelled to make it. I am so lucky to have known a wonderful Lady Phyllis who inspired me to be a nurse and to work with women. I miss her and I will always remember the example she set of courage and strength in and going out of life. This is for you Phyllis.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEiuhJo-PIQ

Great friends make the difference...

Great friends make all the difference in life. I have been so blessed to have great people put in my path throughout my life and this new experience has not been any different. From those far away to those close by, there is nothing that can replace true friendship. I am inspired when speaking with good friends that I want to be a better person, mother, wife, friend. I love that! The world is a better place because of friends who get us through the everyday wonders, unique happiness, and horrifying hurdles. If you don't have one....I highly encourage it!

A Great Quote....I am so lucky to have this man!

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

Wildflowers and braids

For how busy and crazy my life is right now, I feel so carefree. I don't know what the transformation is or where it came from but it seems like I have gone from "life is so complicated and I don't want to deal with it" to " I feel like I am frolicking in a field of wildflower with braids n my hair." I much more prefer the current state of mind. Life IS too short to miss it's beauty by the distractions of so many things that "could" happen or even things that will happen. I have been given a view of life that is enriching and full of possibilities. I guess you can say I have been reborn. In my new venture to becoming a DNP, I feel for the first time in a LONG time that I am where I am supposed to be.... I am home in myself. I am finally surrounded by other people who see the world as I do and are passionate about the same (sometimes weird) things....like the miracle of a single cell, or the function of the heart. The world has become understandable to me with a child like vision and passion. I can't get enough and I hope the view never grows dim.

Passion....

“Nothing great in the world has ever been accomplished without passion.” I have really been thinking about the importance of loving what you do and feeling that rush inside every time you even think about it. That is passion! The dreams you have in life, the ones that you see in your mind, the ones that you want so badly you can taste it! I feel that I am on the passion train FINALLY chasing my dream! It is so awesome! Come follow me....what is your dream....?

Kung FU Panda

Have your ever realized the deep truth in Kung Fu Panda? I hadn't watched it for a couple of years until last night. WOW. He was short and thick and a little naive to what people think he can't do. It's a great lesson. He sees what he wants and he does anything to get it despite discouragements from his own weaknesses and the comments of others. I LOVE IT! I have finally reached PO status. I can finally see through and past my own insecurities and other people's opinion's of my capabilities and I am living my dream!!!!!! Haaaaayaaaaa!

Humbled

I am so incredibly amazed by life and how things really work out. This move has been exhilarating, trying, hard, fun, hilarious, frustrating and one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced. Thus the awe of how all of those emotions come together.....

Today I realized how much I have been truly blessed with in the last couple of months...Health, strength, courage to do what I used to think was impossible, unconditional support, focus, understanding and love. I know what I am doing is what I am SUPPOSED to be doing.....it was proven (again) by the words that I read just now and have never failed me and continue to humble me.

"And I will also be your light in the wilderness; and I will prepare the way before you, if it so be that ye shall keep my commandments....ye shall be led towards the promised land; and ye shall know that it is by me that ye are led."

Short and thick of it......

Hello and welcome to my blog!

I never thought I would be doing a blog but here I go.

First....what's with the name? Well there are many underlying reason's from the past and I am sure will be in the future. The original story is (as those that know me) I am short! There is a specific story that I have told from my teenage years of being called "thick" by a suggestive person and that has stuck....well, I am thick. So that is the origin of the name. There are many other things I will come up with I am sure that will fit. I am so very excited to do this blog.

I am going through a wonderful tough time in my life. Graduate school. I needed an outlet...not just a journal, I feel like I want it to be "out there" for someone to get. Thanks for riding this journey with me!