Racing by....

I know I say this all of the time, but where does the time go? Life is so busy and time is literally gone the moment I get out of bed.

Great day!

Once again, amazed at a wonderful day! Through all of the trials in this transition the light is now begin to penetrate through.

Thoughts on abortion...

As I sit and study I am faced with many emotions on Abortion and how I will handle this in my practice.  These are my raw emotions as I try and work through this particular issue and what I wish for  humanity. My intent is not to make judgment or offend ANYone.  It is to spark thoughtful actions of us all.
Personal Thoughts:
There will always be a reason someone can justify abortion....rape, incest, medically dangerous for the mother, no time, no desire to have children, not ready, too young, too old.....the list continues.  Are these justified?  Perhaps....perhaps not. Who chooses really?  The mother, father, fetus?
My thoughts are that it is case by case, for rape, incest, and medically dangerous for the mother...but even then....we should pause.
Sexually active people have the knowledge (with or without birth control interventions) what sex can lead to....a pregnancy.  To me abortion is an easy way out of a selfish situation and requires little accountability (in the moment compared to what you want right now) on the people who made this pregnancy happen. Often times they don't even see the fetus (ultrasound or after procedure) and therefore become numb to the reality of killing a living being.  I know there is great debate on whether a embryo, fetus, baby, is alive....it's inside of us, it's made of living cells and it's growing, beating, breathing just as we do....how is it not living?
Accountability is becoming sparse in our society with the little things like jobs, money, relationships...but this has creeped into deeper and darker area's and abortion is one of the darkest that is lit by 'women's rights', false hopes, denial, and promises made for a 'better' life without the responsibility of a child.  To these excuses extinguish hope, freedom, faith, belief, and love.
My personal recommendations:
The two A's, Abstinence & Adoption.  Abstinence is the most honorable and unselfish act one can do in relationship.  Pregnancy isn't the only thing that can 'go wrong' with sexual activity....look at the disparities in Africa with HIV...the increased prevalence of teenage STD's....need I continue?
There are so many people that long to have a child who are unable to naturally or artificially that would care and love for a child who is WANTED & DESIRED.
As a future provider in health care, I hope to educate more fully and help guide patients to not only a healthy lifestyle, disease prevention, and effective treatment, but that I can inspire accountability for one's self and those they associate with.  With this accountability, humanity would change for the better in all aspects of life.  Think about it....

Happy New Year

"Wow, I can't believe it's New Year's already" we always seem to say. IS this because we have spent the latter full and enriched or busy and distracted. I am grateful to say the first. I am learning to love myself, love what I am doing, love those around me and love what I will become. Life is a blessing, make sure we open it as a present to be held and cared for, experienced and loved and one that made a difference and not forgotten. So inspired to be more and do more for the world. It's like a cold clear night as you dare to take a cold, deep breath that invigorates the senses and makes life a visceral reality. "Deep breath in .....Ahhhhh, that feels good....what's next?"

Thanks Rascal Flatts.....

"I'm Moving On"

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

Accept What You Can't Change

I am really coming to terms with the importance of accepting people's choices for their choices. No matter how mad, how crazy, how resentful I may fill, it doesn't change their choices. In fact it may push them towards those options I don't agree with. I am taking a new approach to really accept what I can't change. With all of the stresses of life and all that we really don't have control over, no matter how important it is to us, we are not changing someone's mind by not accepting their choices. Ironically, it brings more harm to our soul then theirs. I am really reaping the benefits of this new attitude and it has been a release of responsibility. There is something to the saying "live and let live." Now let me clarify....I am not becoming this passive person, do what you want to do and don't worry about the consequences person. On the contrary, I feel very strongly that we each have a huge responsibility to be the best person in society and contribute to building a healthy society. But, the very thing killing us physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually is self inflicted.....stress, resentment, hate, and selfishness. The cure? Understanding. Isn't that what we all want, to be understood and then loved anyway? I have reached a place that I have never been before. As I have become more accepting and resigned to love instead of resent, I am amazed at how much it makes me love people even more. This may not be a new concept but it has become paramount in my life.

Breast Cancer Awareness 2010

Feeling very inspired this week for the topic of the month Breast Cancer. Trying to wear my pink religiously and thinking of the fallen. I have a goal of eventually walking the walk of 60 miles for the cause, but life is not permitting that right now. I have been obsessed with the John Mayer song "Heartbreak Warfare". I originally wanted to do something political (which I normally am not) but found that it was really making more mad then feeling better. Then I found a couple of pictures on breast cancer and I was compelled to make it. I am so lucky to have known a wonderful Lady Phyllis who inspired me to be a nurse and to work with women. I miss her and I will always remember the example she set of courage and strength in and going out of life. This is for you Phyllis.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEiuhJo-PIQ